im getting so stress.not bout anything but CCA.who would be like me lar.to that specific person.stop bitching behind my back.i had enough of this.if you think its so easy being the captain.tell me straight in the face.i would gladly give up my seat for you.no point telling tales behind my back.so what if im the captain.im still a human.humans do have temper.whats more im a girl.how do you expect me to control the whole track team when no one even wants to listen.i admit im not a very good example to the juniors.but that doesnt mean im a bad example.no one's that perfect.saying that i influence my junior when they start to turn slack.like wtf.im 100% sure that if im not in charge.no one would blame me.is not as if i could control my junior's mind.telling her to be slack.IM NOT UP TO CONTROL HER MIND!if putting all the blames on me make you guys happy.by all means.just let me be the bad guy then.everyday he would just come to me and tell me negative stuffs.i really have to tell that person that you are really a good spy.why not be one??if you really want to be the captain so badly.let me tell you.you are pathetic.do you have to resort to all these kinds of means.this would not get you to anywhere.i know im slack.i know my attitude's not that great like the other.but I WOULD NEVER EVER ASK OR BEG MY JUNIORS TO BE SLACK.though i said im bored of all the repitition trainings.i still carried on.i did everything that's supposed to be done.and i can clearly say that.i did my best.not that i dont wana push myself.but i cant.you think i feel great being so slack issit??

thought you knew my character best.to think you asked me to change my attitude.why must i??im not in the wrong in the first place.dont bother to listen to my explaination next time.im sick and tired if explaining.no matter what i say.im still the bad guy.and you.the nice-nice captain.the only reason im still staying on is because of you.one day when it really hit my limit.that's it.i only can tell you."so sorry".